Fan Landers: Should I Stay in the Closet for the Sake of My Rap Career?
By: Jessica Hopper
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Since about a year ago I've been the hypeman for an better-known MC. Not famous, but people know us in our region. He's gay, I'm bi. Neither of us are out really and I didn't know he was til we got on tour together. He's older and farther along getting established, he's got mixtapes. I do stuff on my own but people have been knowing me mostly since I joined with him. I know if we both came out people would think we are together and have "the gay MC" or "______'s gay hypeman" or with my name always overshadowed by him. At the same time, I am not about to be telling him not to. What do I do?
As a straight woman, I can't sit here and be like "Everyone come out! It'll be cool! Don't sweat it!" because I don't know your city, life and scene and don't know what it would mean for you to be out. I really wish this didn't have to be a big deal for either you or your MC friend and I hope you both can soon be in situations or communities where your coming out is supported. I have real hope that Frank Ocean coming out (and Syd the Kid, Lady Sov, Latifah, et. al) presages an era.
Continuing to work with him once he is out is going to invariably put
you at the frontline for queer visibility in hip-hop, even as a
regional act. His coming out will very likely bring more attention to
your and his work. Whatever he might lose in terms of close-minded fans
(good riddance), he will quickly make up in gay fan base and those who
are interested in supporting an out rapper, and by extension, his
hypeman. So there is that.
The music press can be especially reductive about people's identities; not wanting to be labeled or having your sexuality dominate the conversation about your music is what keeps some musicians and MCs (at least the ones I know) in the closet. You may be overshadowed by you friend's news -- at least until you go solo and do something bigger or better.
If your collaborator isn't planning on issuing a press
release/posting on Tumblr about it, and is simply planning on living his
life in the open, you may not see any impact on your career at all, or
it might take a while to see a tangible effect. If you respect him --
which it sounds like you do, otherwise you would have just bolted -- and
working with him is helping you foster a career and develop your
skills, continue to work with him, regardless of what he chooses. It's
an opportunity for you to work and get a name. The circumstances and
music community in which you find yourself may change with his coming
out, which could proffer different choices and professional
opportunities. I would hang tight and see what comes out of it.
Dear Fan Landers,
I'm a 31 year old, balding bearded guy who doesn't drink but I do possess a love for post-hardcore or whatever. In the past year I moved to a new city, and none of my work friends are really interested in the same music as I am. As such, I feel like the old punk at the local shows I go to, always alone, and am somewhat intimidated into not talking to anyone as they always have their own scene or group going on. The thing is, I've been writing and recording some demo songs, and I'd like to play with even just one other person. How does an outsider get into a new scene without a connection? Am I too old for the punk rock game to even keep trying?